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The phrase “new year, new me” is always mentioned at the end of the year you’re in and at the beginning of the one you’re starting. We do change in a few ways, but we primarily stay the same old bitter selves we always have been deep down.
Reflecting on the past year I’ve had, I have got to say it was the most challenging and demanding year I’ve experienced mentally. I was pushed to new limits I didn’t know existed, I had many low moments I didn’t think I would make it out of, I lost my sense of self, and I found it again. I persevered and achieved new goals I didn’t know were that important to me, I had new opportunities that were life changing, made new memories and had new experiences, and I genuinely learned from what I went through and have grown immensely because of it.
What I took most out of this past year is that I am not able to change people as much as I’d like to, and I won’t always get the answers I deserve, and that’s okay. I discovered a beautiful version of myself that I’d like to keep around. This newfound strength is one of my best attributes in my opinion, and I’m proud of who I became because of these experiences.
I want to continue with setting new goals and creating myself.
I will make more time for myself and do things that help me relax. If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that no matter how hard I try to stay involved in everything, sometimes that one night of staying isolated in my room helps more than ever. Every person on this planet needs a sanity break, and I need to do that more often.
Living a healthy lifestyle will be a top priority of mine. I can no longer eat my emotions away, or become lazy with my workout routines. Focusing on my health is one of the most important things I can do for myself and I won’t let distractions stop me from improving that aspect of my life.
I refuse to succumb to social norms. I will always act like the lady I’ve been taught to be, but I won’t be held back by the judgement or opinion of others. I want to be a strong and successful woman who is building her empire. I don’t need to rely on anyone, especially a man, to make me what society wants me to be.
I will continue to open myself up to new opportunities and showcase my heart. I wear my heart on my sleeve, so take it or leave it. I’m confident in myself and I no longer feel that I am a problem in someone else’s life. I can say I’ve always remained true to myself.
I won’t live my life in fear every moment of the day. I can’t let fear ruin my life and dictate what I should and shouldn’t do. I’m a pretty carefree person, but I’ve lost my sense of fearlessness that I need to gain back. As Wayne Gretzky once said, “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.”
I’m not going to let others dictate my happiness. If I want to do something I shouldn’t feel shame for doing it. I won’t waste my time on people who aren’t worth caring about. I can’t keep waiting for a message that will never come; there is no use in getting my hopes up. And I refuse to let someone else hold me down any longer.
I’m going to do things for myself, by myself. I can accept all the help in the world because it truly helps mold me to who I am, but my sense of independence is growing stronger by the day. I have an opinion, I’ll say it respectfully, and I won’t hide who I am. I’m very comfortable in my own skin and I’m free of insecurities.
This new year is going to be the year of me.
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